Perhaps it's the cold weather that's been putting all sorts of rubbery mummification fantasies in my head. All of the following photos are from Demask.com. They have an amazing range of both rubber and leather! A few of my rubber outfits come from them, and the quality is amazing.



Imagine being lubed up, sliding into a rubber sleep sack...and then realizing there's more to come. As the sack inflates, you become more and more restricted. I love the shape of the body in this photo. If you add a hood, can you tell the sex of this person? Taking someone's identity away is so erotic.
















Rubber, inflation, restriction, and a hood with a dildo? This keeps getting better and better! Deliciously deviant thoughts flood my mind...


















Last, but certainly not least, is the photo to the left. If the rings on the side of the sack were strong enough, it would be wonderful to suspend a slave horizontally in this rubber dream. All sorts of nasty electrical devices could be hooked up to naughty bits...I've had my eye candy for today.

**Note: I don't own these sleep sacks currently. Hopefully in the future I will. If you'd like to make an extremely generous donation to my toy collection by purchasing these wet dreams, send an email to MistressNatalya@gmail.com!

I just had my web board shut down. My mailing list is now closed as well. This year is going to be the year of reorganization and simplification. As I mention in the note on the site, "my energy is better spent elsewhere". In the next few weeks I'll be doing multiple photo shoots to give the site a fresh look. I've been compiling and working on a large, "For Novices" area. With each new potential client, I find myself asking some of the same questions. Negotiations tend to take longer due to the fact that most people haven't thought about what I ask. Having an idea of what I will ask will make the process go more smoothly.

My goals are to have natalyasadici.com reflect my growth as a Domina, be an information source for novices and seasoned players, and be a titillating place to view unique FemDom content.

Everyone is welcome to post respectful comments on this blog. This will be my main source for announcements from now on.

**This is an older photo of Salome, me, and danimal. The variation of our expressions always fascinates me.

A few days ago I had dinner with a female play partner. We had the following conversation:
"When people ask me what the kinkiest thing I've ever done is...do you know what I tell them?"

"No, actually, I don't," I ran through our play time history and wondered what she'd say next.

"Mummification. That is by far the weirdest thing I've ever done."

I asked her why she thought that. It interests me when-as kinky people-we think something is weird. Yes, I do admit that seeing heavy rubber bondage and gas masks as a youngster both startled and excited me. Perhaps, certain activities make us feel weird-a word we use when we're not sure how to describe the feeling. In the case with my female play partner, I know it was a situation she never expected to get into.

As far as mummification goes, I have to say it's my biggest kink. My FPP's(female play partner's) question made me think of all the reasons I'm drawn to this activity.

When I wake up in the morning, I'm usually wrapped in a slew of blankets. During my slumber, I subconsciously turn over and over again-in a way mummifying myself for comfort. Although this makes the process of getting out of my soul sucking bed more difficult, I find comfort in being wrapped this way.

Think about it...when we're in utero, we're curled up like a ball and surrounded by supportive fluid. We get all our nutrients, exchange gases, and wastes this way. The placenta is our supportive wrapping in which we grow without hearing judgment, having deadlines, or other responsibilities.

Once we're born, and have to painfully take our first breath, we cry. We're uncomfortable...and what is the first thing nurses do? Teach our mother how to swaddle us-if she doesn't know already. Instead of supportive fluids, we have blankets. As we grow, I believe we find comfort in things that are strangely familiar to us. Mummification taps into this deep unconscious feeling of being supported.

When I switched, I always wanted to be mummified. No matter what else was going on, I found myself slipping into a meditative state. The slight rocking motion that occurred while other things were done to me put me into a deep parasympathetic state. Who knows how much time would pass, but at some point I felt weightless-like I was levitating off the floor or bondage table.

The first time I mummified a client I found myself drawn to the silhouette of the body encased in plastic. With his head covered, he was androgynous. He was completely helpless-not able to move, not able to breathe unless I let him, not able to see or hear. I turned him into an object-my plastic package of amusement. After cutting him out, he looked like he was being reborn. He slowly came out of his cocoon, blinked a few times, stretched and found new appreciation in the ability to move all his limbs. Once he drank some water, he described his feelings of floating and was amazed how long he'd been wrapped up.

Do we unconsciously seek out infancy and childhood comforts through our kink? Sometimes we do. Right now I look forward to exploring mummification in my favorite material-latex.

I just received the writing below. It's from a new slave who I'm working with to expand his boundaries. This gives a slave's perspective of both the negotiation process and our play time. It has not been edited.

"What if She never responds to my inquiry? What if She doesn't find me worthy Her time and attention? Did I answer all of the questions to Her satisfaction?" These are some of the questions I was asking myself after submitting the online application through Mistress Natalya's website. I really desired to serve Her the very first moment I saw Her pictures and read through Her website.

Some time later I was honored with a response from Mistress Natalya. She asked me further questions and also informed me of a protocol She requires of all new slaves. Before I could hope to session with Her, I had to pass a screening process consisting of email communication and a meeting in a public place. I found the process very educating. I learned a lot from this truly professional Disciplinarian through our email correspondence, including some things about myself. Even before I had the pleasure of meeting with Her face to face, I felt very intimidated by Her strong and very demanding personality. She was able to get me to confess all my desires, and to tell Her all the information She wanted to know about me. I also felt like I got to know Her during the process. I was really looking forward to our initial meeting.

That day finally arrived. I was very nervous and uncertain of how things would go. I was amazed when I saw this beautiful Woman with my own eyes. The feeling of intimidation that I had during our email communication only intensified when I was sitting in front of Her. Her sharp eyes were piercing through my skin as She could read my thoughts and my soul. I felt like I was melting and didn't know where to lay my eyes as looking directly into Hers seemed too dangerous. The words coming out through Her pretty lips sounded like firm commands, even during the moments we were talking about coffee or restaurant food. Mistress Natalya didn't even try to scare or intimidate me, but I just couldn't help this feeling while being around Her. She is a natural Female Supremacist and Disciplinarian, and I could sense it very intensively throughout the entire time I was with Her.

I was so happy when Mistress Natalya informed me later She would allow me to have a session with Her. The time between our meeting in the cafe and the first session was filled with anticipation and high anxiety on my part. At all times, I could hear Her voice in my head as She was talking about different aspects of BDSM, discipline, and humiliation. As the day of the session was approaching, I was feeling more and more nervous, and I was wondering what would happen to me in the hands of this strict beautiful Woman.

The day and the hour have finally arrived. I again couldn't believe my own eyes when I saw Mistress Natalya as She opened the door of the dungeon. Her outfit was a mixture of the old-fashioned taste of a strict Disciplinarian combined with sexuality and provocation: a black skirt at about knee length, a white not fully buttoned shirt, black high heel shoes, and stockings, each with a black stripe rising at the back. Even before Mistress Natalya spoke Her first words, I could smell discipline in the air; a punishment seemed unavoidable.

It was immediately made obvious to me why I was there. I was ordered to strip and to place my belonging in a basket. As Mistress Natalya took some of the clothing off me, She then conducted a very humiliating inspection of my body, including my ears, mouth, and most private parts as well. Mistress Natalya very quickly proceeded to the punishment. I was first disciplined in a standing position with my legs apart and my hands spread above my head. She combined it with one of my biggest weaknesses - nipple torture. Her metal devices were painfully tightening on my nipples in between the lashes She was administering to my body. As Mistress Natalya informed me at some point, the clamps eventually had to come off. It wasn't, however, in the way I was hoping. When She pulled the chain joining the clamps, I fell to the ground in agony.

Before I was ordered on a spanking bench, Mistress Natalya used a rope to make multiple knots along my body and to bind my hands behind my back. I couldn't believe how skillful Her beautiful hands were, working with the rope. A few times I dared to look at Mistress Natalya's eyes - She looked back at me with the same sharp eyes that intimidated me the first time I met with Her. She never smiled to me; She kept threatening me with Her dangerous cold eyes. When I was secured on the bench, the second - more intense phase of the beating began. A single tail whip and a cane left the biggest impact on my body and on my mind. Mistress Natalya purposely tied my hands in such a way that I had small room for movement. That was to see if I could control myself. I wasn't doing too well. Struggling in pain, my hands were wondering with attempts to cover my bottom cheeks and my fingers were whipped a few times. Mistress Natalya made it clear to me at the end that the severity of my punishment was far from the level that would satisfy Her. I realized that and had no choice but to acknowledge and accept the fact that during our next encounter my limits would be pushed much further.

It took me a good amount of time to return to my normal state of mind afterwards. My experience with Mistress Natalya had a huge impact on me and I know that things will not be the same as they were before I met Her. Our relationship will shape me into a male being of Her satisfaction, no matter how demanding, unpleasant and painful this might turn out to be for me. But I am ready and happy to please Her and take whatever She sees fit and appropriate for me. Thank You Mistress Natalya!

A close photographer friend sent me the following link today:

http://blog.ionalynn.com/2007/12/not-every-shoot-goes-as-planned-or-does.html

It's a story of a shoot that obviously didn't go as planned. I've been fortunate to have almost all positive experiences with the photographers I shoot with. It helps that I'm extremely selective, and will only shoot with someone if a trusted friend speaks highly of the person...though this definitely narrows down my ability to make art with others.

Nudity does not equal sex. The comment about the model being a "tease" disgusts me.

I'm a big fan of meaningful and funny quotes. There's been a few that have tickled my fancy lately:

"Behind every great man...is a great woman...beating that man."

"If you make room in your life for pain, it won't hurt as much."

"Men are like wine. They start off as grapes, then it's up to women to smash the hell out of them to make them into something respectful to have dinner with."

"What you want the most can cause you the most pain."

"Give her an inch and she'll take a country!" (a Domina Irene Boss quote)

"You'll learn to value the very air you breathe...(followed by me cutting off your oxygen supply)"

"Women are like fine wine...they only get better with age."

"I choose chocolate over men every time." (a Vendela Zane quote)

"Have you ever stuck your penis in a woman and disappointed her?"

**If anyone else has any FemDom quotes they'd like to add, feel free to comment here.

...is to be yourself. Doing this involves: speaking your mind, being true to what you believe, and living your life to your own expectations. To all those that do all these things every day...I thank you. You're an inspiration to me.

I've often wondered why people stay in abusive relationships. Many people would view the BDSM and D/s lifestyles as abuse, and I'd say that consensual interactions are what separates our lifestyle from abuse. What I'm talking about is a bird of another feather entirely. In the past, I've helped many friends get out of abusive situations. I've also dealt with the aftermath of the breakups and have tried to steer people towards proper counseling.

But why stay? The answer I hear over and over again is that, "I'll be lonely". What's so bad about being alone? Staying in an abusive situation is much worse than any loneliness you'll ever feel. Believe me...I know from experience. Abuse isolates you from your friends and family. It can distort your views of both yourself and others.

The lovely wikipedia describes Stockholm Syndrome as, "a psychological response sometimes seen in an abducted hostage, in which the hostage shows signs of loyalty to the hostage-taker, regardless of the danger (or at least risk) in which the hostage has been placed. Stockholm syndrome is also sometimes discussed in reference to other situations with similar tensions, such as battered person syndrome, rape cases, child abuse cases and bride kidnapping." I've recently heard this terminology used in reference to emotional abuse. This was done by a friend's therapist. Lately, many of my friends have found themselves in emotionally abusive situations. Some have left and recognize the signs, while others are showing the "us vs. the world", mentality.

I was told that my relationships with people are extremely atypical. If you take out the kink component, I wonder what is so atypical about people being genuinely happy with each others company, not ever screaming at each other, dealing with anger in a constructive way, and accepting that not everyone agrees. Not everyone I know is screaming at the one they love because he/she has had a bad day, belittling their significant other because he/she worries about the other person's well-being, or threatening to run off after a disagreement. Don't we enter relationships because they make us happy and are fulfilling? Back to my loneliness question, why is it so hard to not be in a relationship?

I view my time when I wasn't in serious relationships as time well spent. It gave me time to focus on my personal growth, learn things I previously didn't have time for, and realize what I really needed in a potential partnership. The way I look at the world is, "life is too short to spend time with those who don't give a fuck about you." I realized at a very early age that I'd rather be alone than hang around negative people. You never know when your time on this plane of existence will end. Wouldn't you rather go out knowing that you spent time wisely with people that loved you-and loved you for the real you?

I view these negative relationships as perpetuating hate, anger, and frustration in this world. It is emotionally painful for friends and loved ones to be around any form of abuse. If you're currently in an abusive relationship, I hope you recognize it, and can find the proper help. Realize that those that are helping you may reach a breaking point if you don't leave. They may have to distance themselves from you now in order to help you more in the future. What are you doing to yourself and your loved ones by continuing this path?

Special thanks to my rubber hippie worm across the pond for sending this today:

FEMINISM AND FREE SPEECH

* Arts Censorship * The Internet * Pornography * Prostitution The Free Speech Pamphlet Series: Pornography Feminism and Free speech: Pornography is part of the Feminism and Free Speech series produced by Feminists for Free Expression, a national, not-for-profit anti-censorship organization. FFE has prepared this publication to aid in the understanding of pornography, its uses and benefits, and its relation to violence. Below is an overview of the scientific and cross-cultural research, and legal and historical data on sexually explicit material. Popular beliefs are followed by research review. 1. THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN OBSCENITY AND PORNOGRAPHY Yes, there is. Obscenity is sexual words and images which are not protected by Constitutional guarantees of free speech. To be illegally obscene, a work must appeal to the prurient interests, depict sex in a patently offensive way, and lack serious literary, artistic, political or scientific value. Pornography is material designed to arouse and has no legal or consistent definition. Each person's definition depends on her upbringing, sexual preference and viewing context. One woman's "trash" may be another's treasure or boredom. 2. SEXUALLY EXPLICIT MATERIAL CAUSES VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN No research, including the Surgeon General's report, finds a link between "kinky" or "degrading" images and violence. Exposure to such material does not cause people to change their sexual preferences or commit acts against their will. The derailed impulses of child abusers and rapists are caused by childhood traumas. ''They are not," wrote leading researcher John Money, "borrowed from movies, books or other people." Studies on violent pornography are inconsistent. Some find it increases aggression in the lab; some find it does not. Research also finds that aggression will be increased by anything that agitates a subject (that raises heart rate, adrenaline flow, etc.), not only violent movies but riding exercise bicycles. Agitation will boost whatever follows it, aggression or generosity. Dr. Suzanne Ageton, measuring violence out of the lab, found that membership in a delinquent peer group accounted for 3/4 of sexual aggression. Studies in the U.S., Europe and Asia find no link between the availability of sexual material and sex crimes. The only factor linked to rape rate is the number of young men living in a given area. When pornography became widely available in Europe, sexually violent crimes decreased or remained the same. Japan, with far more violent pornography than the U.S., has 2.4 rapes per 100,000 people compared with the U.S. 34.5 per 100,000. 3. MEN WATCH PORNOGRAPHY AND COPY IT OR FORCE WOMEN TO DO WHAT THEY SEE Violence and intimidation existed for thousands of years before commercial pornography, and countries today with no pornography, like Saudi Arabia and Iran, do not boast strong women's rights records. Men have forced women to do things -- sexual and nonsexual -- for centuries. The problem is not sex, it's force. People do not mimic what they read or view in knee-jerk fashion. If they did, the feminist books of the last 25 years would have transformed this into a perfect feminist world. If they did, advertisers could run an ad and consumers would obey. Instead, businesses spend millions of dollars and still, the strongest motive for purchases is price. People juggle words and images -- good and bad -- with all the others that they have seen or heard, and with all their real life experiences. It is experience that is the strongest teacher. Men do not learn coercion from pictures of sex. They learn it from the violence and contempt for women in their families and communities where each generation passes down what sorts of force are acceptable, even "manly." Copycat theories are "porn made me do it" excuses for rapists and batterers. They relieve criminals of responsibility for their acts. 4. PORNOGRAPHY DEGRADES WOMEN Sexism, not sex, degrades women. Though sexism pervades our culture in many forms, we will not eliminate it by banning sex. Sexism and violence stem from long-standing economic, political and emotional factors. It is these that need addressing. Women interpret pornography in different ways. Some find it sexist, some find it a form of fantasy, like dreams and the movies we run in our heads when we masturbate or have sex. Opponents of sexual speech misunderstand that it is in everyone's interest to allow a variety of pleasurable materials that enhance well-being and sexual fulfillment. The only work removed under Canada's new obscenity standard (which claims to outlaw the degradation of woman) is an erotic magazine made by and for women. 5. PORNOGRAPHY IS ONLY FOR MEN Half the adult videos in the U.S. are bought or rented by women alone or women in couples. Sexual health professionals recommend pornography as entertainment and information for women and men. It may enhance failing marriages and help couples talk about and experiment with sex. AIDS and other sexually transmitted diseases have made it a public health necessity to encourage sexual fantasy material that offers women and men safe alternatives to unhealthy sexual contact. 6. THE WOMEN IN PORNOGRAPHY ARE EXPLOITED OR VICTIMIZED Women are exploited and harassed in all fields; some are in pornography. Exploitation will stop when it is vigorously prosecuted everywhere it occurs. When the National Organization for Women considered launching a campaign against pornography, women in pornography protested saying that a ban against it would create a black market of exploitation. Some said their work gave then independence and a sense of accomplishment; banning it would worsen their lives. NOW abandoned its proposed campaign. 7. AS AN AID TO MASTURBATION, PORNOGRAPHY IS ACTION THAT IS NOT PROTECTED BY THE FIRST AMENDMENT Pornography may lead to masturbation much as a novel or film may lead to tears or laughter. All are protected by the First Amendment, including those that some find offensive. "The government may not prohibit," wrote the Supreme Court, "the expression of an idea because society finds the idea itself offensive or disagreeable." FFE does not believe that policing masturbation is the proper business of government or well-meaning committees. 8. BANNING SEXUAL MATERIAL WILL PROTECT OR HELP WOMEN Historically, censorship has hurt women. Information about sex and reproduction has been banned under the guise of "protecting" women -- from the jailing of birth control advocate Margaret Sanger to the "gag rule" against abortion counseling in federally funded clinics to the attacks against National Endowment for the Arts grant recipient Holly Hughes. It has never reduced sexism or violence. If one group may be censored because some find it offensive, all groups may be censored, including women. The best protection for women's ideas and voices is the Constitutional protection of free speech. Sexual images that do not meet women's needs should not be restricted. Better images should be made. The answer to bad pornography is good pornography, not no pornography. © FFE This publication was developed for FFE by Patti O. Britton, Ph.D. Jennifer Maguire and Beth Nathanson, M.A.

I've decided to include some of my favorite pervy websites on here as well. In the future, I'll be including things that are informative and fun.

Recently, I was sent an invitation to join Femdommesociety.com. It's a wonderful site dedicated to the practice of Female lead relationships. Once you sign up for a gold membership, there are a lot of perks. You can access videos, photos, stories, the message board, search for other Dominants or slaves, and be in the monthly contest to win goodies. The FemDom University, slave school, and sissy classes are truly an asset to learn more about the lifestyle.

**This is another lovely image of play time with D from Miss Bee.

As negotiations progress, naturally some common questions come up. One of which is, "what is your style of Domination?" This is a question I often have a hard time answering.

I understand why this question comes up. The response to it is an important gauge of whether or not the submissive and I are compatible. After reading this blog, hopefully you'll understand why this is a difficult question to answer.

First, I believe humans are complicated creatures. We're full of contradictions. None of us tend to stay in one type of emotion for a long period of time. When we're stressed, we're feeling a lot of other things. Frustration, anger, and perhaps sadness are often felt simultaneously with stress. So...how can I come up a neat and precise answer to the "style of Domination" question?

To put it bluntly, I'm a complete sadist. I love to hear whimpers and howls of consensual pain. I love to see the look of apprehension and confusion during mind games and complex orders I give. Knowing that I'm leaving a lasting impression on a submissive creature by either the marks that will take at least a week to heal, or the mindfuck that just ended is what rocks my socks.

This leads me to my next adjective...I'm also nurturing. I make my slaves check in to make sure they're mentally and physically well after a heavy session. I try to inspire personal growth and catharsis when I play. Sometimes a breaking down of ego occurs. Other times my nurturing side comes out in some sort of teacher/student role play.

I can also be a cold, cruel, and heartless bitch. Some of my friends in the lifestyle have called me, "The Ice Queen". Variations of cold and cruel often come out when people least expect it. I don't like screaming and find other ways to put people in their place.

"Sensual", is not a word I often use to describe my personality, but just like anything else, I have my moments.

Playfulness and silliness can come out. I enjoy having a good and hard laugh every once in a while. It's therapeutic. If you can laugh with me and at yourself, that's even better. I enjoy making people do absurd things for my amusement. It's so rare that adults have a good laugh without a tinge of cynicism. Why can't BDSM play be just like playing when we were children?

If I had to pick one word to describe my style of Domination, it would be, "diverse". I enjoy keeping people on their toes. That's better than saying I'm a sadist-nurturer-cold-sensual-playful Domina! Embrace your contradictions and take a walk on the pervy side.