I touched base on this a little on my web board, but it's worth it to post here. After playing both professionally and personally for a while, scenes and sessions can get stale. With all the personalities I come across and deal with on a day to day basis, there have been times when I've thought about throwing in the towel-so to speak. Often, people aren't appreciative of the time you give, the planning you put into a scene or session, or are just plan rude.

When I think of what motivates me to keep playing and seeking out play partners, I come up with a few things. The light in a slave's eyes as she/he slips into sub space, the groans of pain mixed with pleasure coming from a masochist, but the most important to me is genuine power exchange.

If you think about it, genuine power exchange is rare. How often is trust built with another person-the kind of trust where you'd allow another person to have her way with you? Have you ever been able to walk into a dungeon or studio, fall to your knees and say, "do whatever your heart desires"? Could you do this with full confidence that your boundaries wouldn't be blatantly disregarded? Have you played without code words?

The time it takes to build up this level of trust can vary. Thorough negotiations are needed as well as the Domina's knowledge of your biorhythms. Some people just click as play partners. They know themselves very well, and can open up to infinite possibilities. There is no guilt or shame in their play time afterwards. They can just be in the moment...

As I grow as a person, I hope to help my play partners grow as well. I hope to play at this level more frequently in the future. Stating intentions is the first step...

For those of you who'd like to hear my voice, ask me questions about sessions, enact a fantasy over the phone, or be verbally degraded, I'm going to be taking calls on Thursdays through Keen.com. My schedule is subject to change, so I suggest staying tuned in to my blog and Keen page.

***edit on 10/24/07 I decided to add a whole, "Phone Domination" page to my site. They include buttons to see if I'm available which directly link you to Keen. For those of you who are new to Keen and are interested in a phone session, email me. There's a special promotion where I can send you three free minutes. My email address is MistressNatalya@gmail.com

Even when I promise to just tie people up for photos, I somehow end up in the photos...