MNTP sent this lovely gem to my email. The following has been cut and paste from an email. Nothing has been changed or altered. I've only removed my play thing's real name for discretion purposes.

Enjoy...

(For background, the reader should know that the following moments ensued after Mistress Natalya devised a particularly trying predicament to utilize a new toy, a 1" wide split steel stretcher, that Natalya helped me to acquire. I was bound on my hands and knees atop a bondage bench, chest pressed onto bench and very vulnerable) . . .

Nearly in tears from the sensory overload, my head was spinning even while my body was firmly secured upon the kneeling bench. While I was tightly bound at my knees and elbows, keeping me in a vulnerable position, Natalya allowed me enough movement to squirm forward as she relentlessly probed and stimulated me. Deviously ingenious, she used the stretcher that had become a new favorite toy as a tool in this devilish predicament. My arousal from her handling of me would build to what I felt had to be the point of bursting as she would continue to probe and manipulate, and my natural response was to escape . . . get away from the stimulation that would casue me to transgress the forbidden boundry of losing control. Each attempt to escape, to squirm away, was ultimately restricted by the stretcher. Before I could even comprehend my own movements, I would find myself drawn taut beyond what I thought I could bear. I was sweating profusely as I clutched new depressions into the hard wood of the bench. My chest slid slickly across the leather of the bench, my whole body thrust forward, away from Natalya and her probing hands -- my whole body, except for my balls, that is. Only as I was stretched (ironically, under my own power) to the point of breaking would I realize that Natalya's relentless probing had, if fact, relented, and that I was receeeding (if only barelly) away from the brink of orgasm. As I would almost catch my breath and sigh as relief washed over me, I would hear her laugh and feel her hands on my hips, slowly but firmly pulling me back, the relief from the stretching receding only to be replaced with a new feeling of trepidation as she started in anew. I felt an entirely new wave of stimulation and pleasure building, one that I would have to resist to heed my instructions from Natalya. Her laughter was in my ears as I began to squirm away, stretching myself again, pulling myself to the point where the steel cuff bolted around me and my own tolerance for pain would permit no further escape, desparately hoping that Natalya would relent in her delivery of pleasure and spare me the shame of losing control. How did I get here, to a place where I was so single-mindedly driven to escape pleasure, that I would physically stretch myself to the limit of my endurance to avoid it? How did I fall into a mindset where the discomfort was a relief and I sought refuge from pleasure at the boundaries of my pain tolerance? While it was a mystery, slowly unlocking itself to me, someone in the room knew exactly the path to clear to lead me there, and I heard her laugh again as she pulled me back for a yet another revolution of this wicked cycle.

Tomorrow evening I will be co-hosting Exit's Weekly Bondage A Go Go night with Mistress Cleo and Mistress Luxe. Cold bums will be warmed, naughtiness punished, and diabolical smiles will be on our faces! Come out! We'll start at 11pm.

For more information go to www.exitchicago.com

Hopefully we'll see you there.

After going through a lot of "stuff" this year, I've been analyzing my pervy proclivities. What draws me to certain activities? What boundaries have I set for myself, and are they helping or hindering my personal growth? I believe it's natural to take a step back every so often and look at your journey through life.

No, this is not a post to say I'm retiring or moving. So, please don't worry about that. In fact, I've realized how important kink is in my life. This realization came while attempting work on another degree of higher education. Notebooks of fantasies, photo and video shoot ideas, and smut were piling up in my office. Needless to say, I have since stopped working on that degree to follow my heart and passions. The transition has been bumpy so far, but WAY more fulfilling.

The fast approaching new year will be filled with travel, various art projects, the launch of my video production company, and, of course, sessions and play time galore! I have taken steps to reconnect with people I lost touch with once I started as an independent Domina. It's been great to have the time again. There are classes to enhance and evolve my skill set to take, and seemingly "vanilla" classes I'd like to attend also. What can I say? "Student of life", is one of my mottos.

In general, I've been doing a lot of inner work. I wish all of you a safe holiday season-if I don't see you out and about over the next few weeks-and health and happiness for 2009!

I'd like to give a public thank you to slave jim. There's a new electrical device he helped add to my collection. It's tempting to gush all about it here, but I want to leave a certain level of mystery for those of you who have sessions coming up. A lady can't give away all the tools she has in her kinky toolbox, can she? ;)

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Do you have an exhibitionist streak and enjoy CBT? Well, I may have a video slave position for you! You can be hooded or unhooded(to conceal your identity), but I have some other requirements.

Those who have not met or played with me before MUST meet me in public for coffee, lunch, or dinner. It goes without saying that any beverage or meal consumed together is your treat. Some novices need to be reminded of this. I will choose males who I feel I have a rapport with-some kind of synergy.

You must be able to provide two valid forms of id and sign a model release. All rights will belong to natalyasadici.com and this is NOT A PAID POSITION. Email me at MistressNatalya@gmail.com and put "Video slave position" as the subject.

I'm looking forward to making fetish art!

After many months of work, version 2.0 of natalyasadici.com is live! As with many creative projects, it is a work in progress. I hope to add more stuff to the, "For Novices" section. If you have any feedback as to what you think would be helpful for this section, email me at MistressNatalya@gmail.com. This area will be continuously added to over time. Right now it's primarily protocol for having a real time session with me.

So, enjoy and keep checking back for updates! I'll be sure to keep everyone informed of them through this blog.

Be well.

...life throws you a huge curve ball. To all those who've been there for me, I love you very much.

I'll be going through some HUGE transitions in the coming months, but I'm confident everything will be much better as a result.

Be well, and I will follow up with something saucy very soon.

Due to unforeseen reasons, csj has to be let out of chastity. I'm very unhappy about this, but I have a feeling he'll come crawling back at some point. Despite my unhappiness he's been a fun test subject.

Speaking of chastity, I'd like to discuss behavior modification-both its importance to me, and how it can be incorporated into personal training or regular sessions. I've listed behavior modification as one of my main interests on my website. Why? Because D/s and BDSM can explore very deep parts of the psyche. Emotions, long repressed experiences, and new desires can all come to the forefront during play. Seeing the changes in my play partners through time has been one of the most challenging and rewarding experiences I've had. In general, I like to see our pervy adventures-no matter how intense, humiliating, or otherwise-open the person up and result in a more balanced person/pet. That's the Libra in me! Always craving balance!

Behavior modification can be something I want to change in a person, or the person desires to change in her/himself. Though I enjoy shaping male-like specimens into creatures and pets of my own design, I find it extremely interesting when a person comes to me with specific goals.

A few years ago a man called the dungeon and stated he wanted a "behavior modification session". At the time I was a new Mistress and thought he'd want to learn certain slave positions-just basic things. Given the fact it was a one hour session, I didn't think we would accomplish much. I figured he wanted the role play of being a long time slave and so forth. When we were able to talk I realized he wanted to come in regularly. His goal was to become more attentive to his wife. What better person to go to than a whip and paddle wielding dominatrix, he thought. We had a thorough conversation about his circumstances, I asked him questions about his wife, and we set to developing certain habits. Each time he came in, he'd have to discuss how things were going, if his wife vocalized annoyance with his behavior, etc. Depending on how he was doing, I'd pick a light flogger, paddle, cane, or signal whip to dish out his corrections. Eventually, his wife would book sessions for him. Though I never met her in person, she seemed thoroughly pleased and excited about how things were going.

Though I liked our arrangement, some people need more day to day discipline and motivation-especially if you're training someone who lives far away or can't see you as often. This is where I like to bring chastity into the equation. The sexual energy most males release on a regular basis gets backed up, they become agitated at first, then they look for things to do or accomplish. When you hold the key to the device, your influence is extremely powerful. There comes a period of time when the focus is on the key holder. The captive starts to have thoughts like: what can I do to please my Mistress? Would she like a massage at a spa today, her car washed, a lovely orchid plant? Eventually there is an acceptance of the situation.(chastity in and of itself will be a whole other post!) This is where the captive is most malleable and can accomplish a great deal. The sexual frantic energy coupled with acceptance of the situation is a lovely combination. If something isn't accomplished by a certain period of time, the easiest way to punish is to add more time to the chastity sentence.

For those that are more cerebral-i.e. not ruled by his genitals-behavior modification becomes more complex. You really have to dive inside your slave's head, find out what makes it tick, and figure out clever ways to punish and reward. Chastity doesn't often have the intense impact on these individuals. I've noticed more subtle means have a dramatic effect once you really know who you're working with. A phrase said, a scent, type of music, and more could be just the right thing.

In any behavior modification situation think of the following: Does this person want to change his behavior because it's what YOU want and would make YOU happy? Or is he deeply desiring the change himself? Perhaps both parties see merit in the change. Are you the gentle guide to change? Or are you enacting strict punishment at every turn? What exactly are acceptable punishments and rewards given the circumstances? Are you doing subtle behavior modification on the sly without letting your slave know your intentions? All of this must be thought about.

The key to any goal oriented modification is to set REASONABLE time tables. A person can't just drop 30 pounds in a month and be healthy. Trust must also be established. Both parties must be comfortable with the amount of communication, disclosure, honesty, time spent, and activities involved. (By comfort I mean within the realms of risk aware consensual kink.) In the cases of subtle behavior modification-where the slave doesn't know of your intentions-I'm assuming there's a knowledge of boundaries.

I highly recommend writing out your intentions and timetable. It's essential the slave keeps a journal of some sort and either presents it to you, or sends email updates. Google documents is a great way to send journal assignments and alter a time table. There's also online calendars where only certain individuals can see it. You can set your preferences to allow however many people see it while it remains almost non-existent to the rest of online world. Another idea is to have your slave sign up for a voice mail box. This keeps certain messages private, and the Mistress can leave messages of encouragement, admonishment, or update the timetable.

Happy behavior modifying! :)

Chastity slut jeff(from now on he'll be referred to as csj) has been locked away for almost a month and a half now. His slave goo is building up and poisoning his mind...perhaps so much that he can't answer simple questions through email.

Part of his punishment is posting his dilemma in this blog. The other part is to add more to his sentence. He always gets embarrassed when I mention his state to others:) I don't want my toy to build up an infection, but despite his state he needs to answer simple questions.